Getting personal once again! This one will probably end up being a long one, so let’s get into it.
‘All the things you’ve said and the things you’ve done / Can you carry it with no regrets? / Can you stand the person you’ve become?’
– Bastille, Bad Blood, Weight of Living Pt. I
To be a bit existential, we are constantly changing. Moment to moment, our identity is always in flux. We are a goopy, ugly, wonderful mess of our experiences and thoughts. The people we know and knew, the things we’ve done and not done, our beliefs and quirks. Sometimes it can all get confusing and melt into one big question mark. I’m on a quest to wholeheartedly and unabashedly love myself, flaws and all. But sometimes it’s hard, sometimes I don’t even know who ‘Chloe’ is. I am a work in progress.
‘All that I want / Is to wake up fine / Tell me that I’m all right / That I ain’t gonna die / All that I want / Is a hole in the ground / You can tell me when it’s alright / For me to come out’
– Paramore, After Laughter, Hard Times
Life sucks right now. Not in every way, but in enough ways. Often it seems like everybody is doing both better and worse than you. Sometimes I just want to take a break from life. Maybe find a cabin in Norway and hide out there for a while. But I keep powering through because of the good stuff.
‘I ain’t gon’ smile if I don’t want to / Hey, man, we all can’t be like you / I wish we were all rose-colored too’
– Paramore, After Laughter, Rose-Colored Boy
This one is connected up to the above section. I wish that we all put a bit more positivity and light in the world, but that’s difficult when you aren’t feeling so rosy yourself.
‘I walk through this world, just tryna be nice / They say I’ll get hurt, if I’m not like ice’
– Hayley Kiyoko, Expectations, Feelings
I’m a Cancerian. I’m always looking to help people and see the best in them. I’m an emotional mess who just wants to be at home surrounded by her loved ones. I’ve always worn my sensitive little heart on my sleeve, often at the disagreement of others. I would rather live to love and get hurt than live inauthentically.
‘One track mind, one track heart / If I fail, I’ll fall apart / Maybe it is all a test / Cause I feel like I’m the worst / So I always act like I’m the best’
– Marina and the Diamonds, The Family Jewels, Oh No!
Due to my fear of failure and self-esteem issues, this one hits pretty hard.
‘I am fighting battles / I am fighting wars / Every day, it’s true / Aren’t you?’
– Corbu, Crayon Soul, Battles
‘Even if the sky is falling down / I know that we’ll be safe and sound’
– Capital Cities, In A Tidal Wave of Mystery, Safe and Sound
These two songs are so goddamn positive it’s like a big eff you to cynicism, something we’re all too prone to do. They remind me that there is good in the bad and light in the dark. Plus they’re fun to dance to.
‘You’ve got it all / You lost your mind in the sound / There’s so much more / You can reclaim your crown / You’re in control / Rid of the monsters inside your head / Put all your faults to bed / You can be king again’
– Lauren Aquilina, Fools, King
Same as above. We’re being more positive people!
‘And in my mind / I imagine so many things / Things that aren’t really happening… / And it’s funny how I imagined / That I could win this winless fight / But maybe it isn’t all that funny / That I’ve been fighting all my life / But maybe I have to think it’s funny / If I wanna live before I die / And maybe it’s funniest of all / To think I’ll die before I actually see / That I am exactly the person that I want to be’
– Amanda Palmer, Goes Down Under, In My Mind
This song is a pretty good summary of what this whole article has been about. It starts low emotionally but with high expectations, then slowly lowers the bar and the self-esteem rises. All this while sounding super cheerful and positive. It’s a great reminder to us all, I think.
What do you think? Got any lyrics that mean a lot to you? What are your favourite songs? I’d love to talk about them with you over on Twitter @apageoutofchloe or down in the comments below 🙂